depressing.

its kinda depressing. thats how I feel now. feel like heading over to sakae sushi for a sushi feast, or..or...having steamboat bbq. just felt like gorging myself with food, to make myself feel better.

went for an interview at a events company today, hopefully I get gd news soon.

left house today with elder sis, she said my boobs are really flat now. As I look at myself in the reflection when I reach the mrt, I was taken aback how haggard and bony I look now. I don't look good at all.

I feel like going for a short getaway. but my savings don't allow me to. my screwed up laptop adds oil to the fire. I hate to say this but, I pray that somehw I can get a new laptop. I can't imagine how am I going to survive without the access of msn to chat with my frens, unable to update my blog, can't watch free movies frm a secret website Im not gonna disclose.

Elise(my agent for modelling and dance shows) called. she asked if Im ok because she read my blog. was kinda shock didnt expect she reads my blog, and felt comforted to know that some1 who is not really close to me, cares. she encouraged me and told me her bf (also name aaron haha), is somewhat like my aaron. thnks elise.

I like what she said.

"he doesn't say the most comforting things but says the most truthful way that hurts. thats how I noe he loves me coz the ones who tell the truth are the ones who really care. he doesnt say things nicely most of the time,but you see, he's still there too."


tmr's our 11th mth anniversary. 1 more mth to our 1 year. but why isit that I had no mood to think about how to celebrate...