New Year-New Start

I would like to thank everyone who showed concern and gave me encouragement and advices all these while.

Those whom I don't know, but follows my blog, thanks for trusting in me, and standing on my side. Really appreciate. Those who sent me emails to encourage me, thanks. It was very nice of you all.

I have gotten over everything, and tonight, I was amazed with how much progress I have made. when it didn't hurt anymore, I know I have already let it go.


Alright, lets not talk about that anymore. Im happy with my life now.

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I can't sleep now, because Im waiting for Hossan Leong (yes, he's the comedian) to text me. He's my emcee for the New Year Eve Countdown Party at Clarke Quay tomorrow night.

We are in charge of the countdown party at Clarke Quay, at the open area. Come on down people! and remember to say Hi should you spot me. I'm the "bodyguard" of the emcees, so I'll be 24 hrs with them.haha...


An advance Happy New Year to all of you~

My new year resolution

1) my bank account to save up to $x,000k by March.
2) to get a pay raise in March
3) to get less scolding from Boss, and empower my multi-tasking skills at work
4) to be stronger than before
5) to be able to travel overseas for projects


Share a couple of good news with you guys

- Today I received praise from Boss, he said that I can work one. That made me happy for the whole day.

- Second, the client of 1 of the project Im handling has chosen us to do their event. all my hardwork, tedious research, missed lunch breaks, overtime, and scolding from Boss has not gone to waste.


See, even the way I type now is so systematically, in many paragraphs, short and easy to read, and in point forms. This is what Im trained to do at work. muahahahaha...

I must say I really learnt alot from work, I have grew to become very meticulous, more responsible for what I do. (forced to, if not kena from Boss) *rofl*


I almost couldn't recognise myself. Anyway, Im glad with my changes. =)

do you really know her/him?

Its scary, that suddenly you realise you don't really know this person, whom you used to love, and had so much nice memories together.

I don't know who to trust, but I really don't wish what others said is true.

Work has been getting hectic more than ever, and Im rushing work at home, right now.





Im really exhausted...

contradiction.

even after all that happened, I never really hated you. and I missed you.

All along, no matter how bad our quarrels were, how you disappointed me and hurt me, I acknowledge you as my bf. The one I truly loved, and Im proud to have.

When you brought me along to meet ur grp of frens, I thought I actually meant something to you, that you introduced me to ur closest frens. And then I realised, it was just a 1% of ur frens/acquaintances/colleagues, the rest didnt even noe my existence.

have you forgotten the time I burnt my fingers while doing "I love u" using tea candles in ur room to surprise you, and you were so touched and kept smiling the whole nite? have you forgotten ur birthday surprise I took 2 mths to plan for it, all for the sake of seeing you smile? have you forgotten the love journal I did for you, that you said u were so touched you would cherished it?

why is it, that all these are forgotten and gone with the wind?

I didnt thought we would end this way. I thought you would be matured enuff, love me enuff, treasured what we had enuff, to at least work it out, or end it mutually/decently.

you used to tell me that I would not haf another traumatised breakup, unless there is something I can't stand about you. but you gave me one.

you taught me that there is always alot of options and ways to solve problems, but you chose the ultimatum. I could clearly list out more than 1 way we could both solve the problem. I learnt what you taught me. but why did you have to choose the destructive way out?

I told myself, that I would stop thinking about us for now. you said relationship is not everything. but why is it that you used to make me feel that I was ur everything? you said you wouldn't feel complete without me, and if I left, you don't know what would happen to you? I still believed what you said until today, because you were never a sweet talker. and when you say things like these, I know you mean it. and I foolishly want to believe every word that you said. even if I know you don't need me anymore. what I cant accept, is why you had no courage to admit that you don't love me anymore, and you don't need me anymore. its the hard and ugly truth, but at least, I know you are not lying. all I wanted, is you to be truthful to me. even if love has long gone. I rather be hurt with the truth. and I swear I wudn't hate you.


This is the 3rd week of my work, and you have never asked about it. I wished I can share with you my ups and downs.



I wished you can see how much I have changed.



and Im still waiting...to watch Alvin & the Chipmunks with you. maybe you have already watched with I don't know, but everytime I saw the advertisement, I find it hard to control my tears. This is silly... but there's no one else I want to watch with, other than you. only you know what is my favourite part, what I like most, and you were the one who make me like cartoons.



"me...I want...a hula hoop...."


its my sms alert tone, and everytime it rings, I tot of you. and somehow, I tot of how you would always smile, when you see me mimicking theodore and happily laughing to myself.


and that smile of urs, was all it takes to make me do anything for you. and now as I typed these words, tears dropped. I wasn't exaggerating, but these tears, tells how much I missed you.

Bad day.

I had a bad day.

screwed up at work, and got a very bad lashing from boss.

when I mean bad, I mean BAD. he used the word "fuck" to scold me. fortunately, Im used to it because you always used that word on me when we quarrel.

I had the urge to msg you and tell you that I had a bad day. I wish you were there for me. But on second thoughts, I knew what would you say even if I went to you. "good, now you know the reality of work life."never once, you said something comforting to make me feel better, whenever I am feeling low.

I guess I must thank you. because of you, I can withstand the worst scolding from people, in bad times I can pull thru, without having anyone to run to. All thanks to your "training".

These 2 weeks, I didnt had a clue what are we. After I saw you changed your friendster status, I finally understood.

Don't tell me you are waiting for me to change,please. don't make it sound so nice that you are patiently waiting for me to realise and change. you painted the picture so nicely, I almost got fooled.

1 thing I realised, why is it that the lies I found out about you, is all about you going out with girls one on one, (more than 4 times), but not you going out with a big group of friends, or with guys? so what is going out with friends?when all the times, is just you with that same girl, or another girl. Just you, and her.


Im thankful for all these shit that happened, people who helped me find out the ugly truth.


1 day, you will see how much I have changed, for the better.

哭過就好了

看你微妙的变化慢慢不同
我不是生气只是心痛
最讨厌被误会了
但越解释越觉得难过

你可以说人会变但不能说
你会這麼做 是我的错

哭过就好了 伤都会好的
这样相信所以深呼吸著割舍
哭过就好了 痛都会走的
记忆有限所以它会淘汰坏的
失眠听歌想念虽然苦涩

还是谢谢你让我长大了
越多美好堆叠的过往
想忘就得推倒更大的悲伤
要找勇气却不在口袋或手上
但它一定在我身上某个地方

My fantabulous Xmas eve~

I didnt regret getting out of my house to meet e gals, I had a fantastic time~

Rachel and bf had a suite at Raffles Town Club, bought sushi platter & KFC, off we went to meet the couple there.

They had jacuzzi, steam bath and sauna in the room!can u imagine?!it was way cool!I swear I will come back and have my own suite, at least once in my life. nt I sua ku ok?its an experience I just gotta try once.

Butter factory countdown at night, it wasnt as exciting as we would all be in the past, we all have grew up, partying and all is not our thing anymore. but it was just the company that makes everthing worthwhile.



outfit for the day.

Love this dress my sis bought. I just had to dorn this the moment I tried it on.

merry xmas pasta baby!

this, is the legendary suite Im talking about.

A magnificent jacuzzi in the room. right in front of the bed.

see, we always think alike. wore same colour again. haha...

I gotta have this is my future home.

enough of photo-taking, its action time!

I think no hotels can match to this. raffles town club's suite is the best

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1 hottie, 2 hottie, 3 little hottie...

We had chivas jacuzzi, shimin (in white on the extreme right) slipped and fell, pouring the chivas inside...haha

the best past is, the first and only thing she was concerned with, was her makeup..

Whee!!!

Im the peacock goddess. see my halo?

the tai-tais.

relaxation.

Welcome to Taiwan~ *personal joke they were making*

welcome to singapore!I replied.

candid shot. I like this.

Merry xmas to everybody~ May happiness be with everyone, especially me.