Gold diggers.

Through a chat with a girlfriend I met up recently, we were talking about this girl, lets call her X. Don't need to guess because X is not her initial.

My gf is like her only friend I think. X has no female friends that are on good terms with her. and she is on the top of my number Hate List. No she never did anything to me, never hurt me or bad mouth/bitch abt me. When I saw her shouting at my girlfriend in public at the top of her lungs over something that is super minor, in front of everybody, she became my No.1 enemy from that moment onwards.

My girlfriend still silently accepted her fcuked up treatment. She has always been lah, good to bully. There are other girls who equally hates X like me, who have witnessed how she treats her own friends.






Who treats their girlfriends like that one?!I have never ever shouted or raised my voice at my own girlfriends. Sometimes I think I treat them better than my bf (agreed uanimously by my family & friends). Apparently, she treats her dates/bf-to-be the same way. And still, I don't get it why she is very much sought after by men of good calibre. (Financially/physical outlook).

BUT, she has got them grabbing their feet and ran off soon after witnessing her temper. YES LA!!!GOD HAS EYES! oh!and another thing, I can't stand the way she thinks she is god damn gorgeous when everyone I know agree she doesn't look any better than me. And Im only average.

X at 1 point of time, is dating someone who is really well to do, and dragging on with an ex bf who is good looking but poor. She chose the first. Im not trying to say she is materialistic or wrong. But it really got me into thinking, its a really hard thing to judge whether choosing over a better life is wrong or sticking with someone who can't give you a future/comfortable life makes you a wonderful girl.

But for her case, I would say she is just plain materialistic la. I think people who knows her would agree with me. Her current squeeze now is a living testimony.

If you met someone like this.....tall, drop dead gorgeous thing that any female species who walks past ogle at him (forgive me bcoz I've been catching this taiwan drama 泡沫之夏 lately & think he is cute.)

But he is a poor lad, can't offer you any gifts, bring you to nice dinner, you can't expect much from him. Basically, you are richer than him.

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And there is this not so hunky, less than average looking (ok maybe not so old & hideous like this ah pek la), but wealthy man/guy younger than you who can give you anything under the stars, shower you with gifts & take care of your expenses)

who will you choose?

Pasta mei mei~

Have been calling her Pasta mei mei recently~!cute right?!

Its been awhile I have taken photos with Pasta. So I went abit uncontrolled on this. Pardon me.

some snapshots of me in the morning on my way to work~

Alright!Thats it folks!Going out to meet Queenie dear for pre birthday dinner!

2011 resolution.

In no more than 48 hours, 2010 is coming to end.


Worked in advertising & events industry. Seen the good & the bad. Some valuable experiences gained.

Met my special someone who is near perfect & have a fulfilling relationship. ^_^

Had my first overseas trip to Bangkok, with my favourite boy.

Grew older & wiser.


I still have not accomplished much this year. And I hope next year at this time, I can list out more accomplishments.

In 2011, I will be a better GF:

GF (Girl friend to my girls).

Sex & e City best represents a long lasting unbreakable friendship. Each one of us represents 1 of the character, and it really fits! Im Charlotte, cuz I'm most likely to settle down with kids, the dark hair (I'm the only one in the group with dark hair), & e simple clean cut dressing style. Rachel as Carrie Bradshaw (e leader in e grp, most flamboyant & outstanding in dressing), Cindy as Miranda (e only resemblance is age & e short hair lol), Charmaine as Samantha *ahem* (only we know why).

Ah bell I never forget you hor, because just nice the 4 woman quite like 4 of us. u is "tao eh", so not in the picture. Boss is always never show face one.

GF (Girlfriend to my boy)

To be less inquisitive/overly sensitive/whatever you may call it.

Disclaimer: I am not that exaggerating alright

To stop always trying to win a fight. I will try to give in more.

I will show lesser of this face.

I will stop firing nasty bullets of fire during a fight.

I will control my urge to send u smses of vulgarities, words I don't mean it & such (ok la I don't scold you vulgarities you know right...) in a fit of anger.



On a side note, we bought our couple wear for tomorrow!!I so love it!Im not into wearing cute couple tees because people who does disgust me. You think what?Secondary school kids ah? one person wear "She is my princess", one person wear "She is my prince". *roll eyes*

My idea was a more stylish look & not too over the top. Compared to the couple tees la. Damn hard to find ok.

Stay tuned if you want to know what are we wearing~! I know you want to. =P

脆弱.

我脆弱　像泡沫　因泡沫　被戳破
我陷落　像漩渦　的漩渦
將隨等候著　不斷在剝落　
有個我被吞沒

我脆弱　像薄膜　擠薄膜　
捆壓破自信過　像貝殼　被碾過
我還能相信些什麼　
但承諾和溫柔都被揮霍
剩我一個人一個人執著　又算什麼

那麼為什麼是我　
我真的脆弱
記憶丟失後　由西邊逃走
為什麼　我不覺得快樂　
也不覺得難過
為什麼而活　愛又算什麼　
好多假動作　我們都寂寞

我脆弱　像粉末　吹粉末　在散落
我愛過　但寂寞　更飽和　
還能相信些什麼但承諾和溫柔都被揮霍
剩我一個人一個人執著　又算什麼

那麼為什麼是我　我真的脆弱
記憶丟失透　由西邊逃走
為什麼　我不覺得快樂　也不覺得難過
為什麼而活　愛又算什麼　好多假動作　我們都寂寞
是否一錯過最好的下一個　那會不會你錯過我　
各自生活　被放錯了角落為何總是覺得有點不妥　
不知道缺少了些什麼花　自開又自落

為什麼是我　我真的脆弱　
命運丟失後　由西邊逃走
為什麼　我沒有想什麼

就算有人愛我　太少人懂我寂寞　等回落




This is not about my relationship, but something else bigger in my life thats affecting me hugely and its eating me up...


I really hate to feel that I have given up the events/shows path for nothing. Please...please show me that its worth it all. I have no idea how long more can I hold on to my aspiration.

I am slowly giving up my beliefs and firmness in the career I want and opting for something lesser. I don't know if this is right anymore...

Santa gave me the best xmas.

Its amazing I have never told him I wanted a polaroid camera before, not anywhere in my blog or facebook. I never even told anyone before cause I tot it was quite stupid since digital cameras became the hot topic.

So, I almost melted in a pool of sweetness when he gave me this for xmas~!

Xmas eve countdown party with his friends was awesome!!!

Theme was: Red for ladies, Green for men.

super sweet gal (she's a black belt taekwondo mind you), who drew all 23 cards for each and everyone of us, with different candies stuck inside. Thnks Val!

my super cheap buy just in time for this party. you won't believe how much I bought this dress for. but ended up being called a table cloth by his stupiak friend. ok what...very christmas-sy feel wat....

with one of the latest "gf" in the group.

all the hot red gals!
with the tallest gf. she was so kind to bend down to accomodate me.

we had a game where we were tasked to dress up one member of the team as xmas tree. this was my work of art. guess who the poor fella was. *drum roll* bf's younger brother. lol

Love my xmas present. Love my love- You.

breaking the myth.

Alot of people say I look different from my sisters. I found these 3 photos and I think we look pretty much alike. The truth is I really look different to them, I look more like my brother especially when Im without makeup. Sadly.

The key is - both of them to put lesser and go light on their makeup, and I to load up on the coloured contact lens and eye makeup. lol

Lose or win?

now I know what my mum meant when she told me, "you don't have to ALWAYS win in a fight. Its ok to lose once in awhile. What you lost from insisting on winning will make you lose even more"







Today,I finally fully understand the deeper meaning of this sentence.

changes, are they right or wrong?

many a times, we change at some point of time in our lives.

When I was little, I never like Pink, I never had any Pink dresses. When I was growing up, I never take a second look at Pink clothes.
Now, I start to squeal at cute pink sweaters and hot pink dresses.

When I was in my early teenage stage, I carefully filter guys based on their height & looks. They must be at least 1.8cm and look cute/hunky/hot. They would party & drink with me, take care of me when I get wasted.
Now, I want somebody who loves my family, doesnt cheat on me & treasure me, as long as he doesn't share the height and looks like Hunchback of Notre Dome or the ugly creature in Lord of the Rings.
I found someone who doesn't party nor drink, who takes care of me when Im at the lowest point in my life, and not tell me all the big words of how much he loves me then decided to leave suddenly without any valid reason/return to their ex gf/found someone hotter.

When one is attached, you would spend most of your time with your other half. And tend to neglect friends & family who were there for you when you were single. I admit I committed that act. Its really hard to balance your love life & ur friends equally. Sacrifices need to be done. Sometimes there are just some factors that made this alot difficult. But who can really understand?

To me, "honeymoon period" is really dependant on individuals. Some last for only 1 month? Some last up to a year? Its pretty hard to last for years. I believe that one should not judge others based on their standards. Just because you and your partner spend time alone, travel overseas without ur other half, doesn't mean the rest of your friends or people must be like you. Especially if you and your other half have been together for years, naturally you both enjoy taking time off from each other, its the way to maintain a long running relationship. There are also another type of people out there who just enjoy having more freedom even when in a relationship. The "unbounded" one. Its just them.

But others might be only together for months, and its still their honeymoon period. Its not fair to weigh both cases and judge them.

Having said that, my point is, I really do feel that we should never neglect our friends when we are in a relationship. But as good friends, the last thing they should do is judge ur own friends without hearing their side of the story.


Im lucky my gals are straightforward and frank people, they don't talk at the back of me and pretend to be best friends. At least they bother to talk to me, and hear me out. Though they like to say "Aiya..I know your pattern from the start liao..." when I apologise to them. Hor Rachel & Bell? hahahaha


True friends don't judge their own friends without hearing them out and understand where they are coming from.


Have you talked to your buddy and hear him/her out today?

everything.

你爸爸披头问我一句话
我不回答
他问我能不能给你一个家
我愣在那
不回答不代表我没有想法
不回答不代表挣扎
有些事心里明白却不能够明讲

我没有车没有钱没有房 只剩梦想
当未来的路实在太难走 我也害怕
害怕让她陪着我一起闯荡
害怕她困窘的时候
所以我不说的话把说的比做的差
有些话不肯表达
有些话都是没有讲
但是我不会让她陪我累
但是我不会让她流眼泪

能给的我都给她
只是不需要你们说的话
受伤后泪水我都不会流
因为她就是我的全世界



Sometimes all you need is someone who doesn't have everything, doesn't have all the riches in the world, but gives you everything that he has.



Thats what I need, and what I've found.

feeling good.

Pasta looks exactly like this when she just arrive. No..she looked 100 times cuter. I wonder what happen to her now. hahahahaha....ok la Pasta, u still look as cute as before, minus those fats on ur tummy.

Feels good to spend more time at home now with Pasta, now that I have started work and staying home on weekdays.

This week is one to look forward to. Gotta meet up with the girls for advance xmas dinner on Thurs , Xmas party on Fri with bf and his friends, and Xmas mini celebration with him on Sat.

2 more days!!

totally true.

If you are anonymous - you must be a fat ugly loser in real life.

If you show your identity and you look ugly - You should do plastic surgery.

If you show your identity and you already did plastic surgery - you are fake and disgusting.

If you are au-natural and pretty - you are still fake coz you put make-up, or must photoshop your pictures.

If you are pretty and don't put make up - it's because you don't know how.

If you are pretty and put make up - you are superficial, insecure and shallow.

If you are single and not dating - something's wrong with you.

If you are single and dating - you are a slut.

If you are attached - your boyfriend is either ugly or too good for you.

If your partner is rich - you are a gold-digger.

If your partner is poor - you are a unrealistic romantic and if you break up with him for someone who works later on, you are a gold-digger.

If your partner is nice - Don't know what he sees in you.

If your partner is a jerk - You are a moron for dating him in the first place but you deserve no better anyway.

If you keep your life private - you have something to hide and you are a liar.

If you don't keep your life private and your life is sad - What a loser.

If you don't keep your life private and your life is fab - What a show off.

If you wear mini skirt you are encouraging sex maniac to rape you or to take photo/video of your underskirt

If you don't wear skirt you are a tomboy or you have damn fat and ugly legs

If you pose photos in bikini you are showing off to people, and a sluty bitch

If all of your photos are in conservative clothing you are hiding all your fats

If you have boring hair style and clothing it means that your don't even know any about fashion

If you wear branded clothing you are trying to show off that you are rich

If you wear cheap & no brand clothes you are poor and ugly

If you post about how sad you feel after breaking with your bf you are a loser/you deserve it

If you don't feel sad at all it means that you are having affair with other guy before you break with you bf/you are not serious in this relationship

If you post about your bf or husband having affair with other woman it means that you are an ugly loser that he don't even want to fuck you any more

If you don't respond to haters - Means what they said must be true and you have nothing to say.

If you respond nicely to haters - They will just have more ammunition and hate you more.

If you respond rudely to haters - You cannot take criticism and you are a cyberbully




I highlighted my favourite.





Extracted from: XiaXue's blog

role models to learn from.

its ok that people don't like me & provide me with "mean comments". I honestly feel this way.

Because Im not an angel, I make mistakes, I screw up, I may have hurt people's feelings with my frankness during the stage of me growing up, I upset my mum by raising my voice, I upset my bf when I speak the wrong words in the heat of an argument, I make a mess at work because of being inexperienced, I fight with my younger sis over clothes & her not turning off the lights & music when Im trying to get to sleep, I scold Pasta when she tries to lick me. And many more.

But its not ok to criticise me without the courage to reveal who you are. Since Im such a bitch to you, it means u girls are saints right?so all e more you should show everybody who u are, because you got nothing to hide. I really want to know who you are, how you look, what do you do, how you treat people around you with respect & with a clear conscious heart.

I want to learn from you all, good girls with fantastic personality for me to look at as role models.

I'm not being sarcarstic, I mean it. Would be great if you can post your website or facebook link for me to get to know you all better.

Looking forward~! =)

rainbow will descend.

yes no doubt this is a really fcuked up period, bad things come in a row. But I believe, that no matter what, the rainbow will come out after the rain. It always does.

Praying hard and hoping, believing that this will all be over in no time, and then we will smile like little kids again.


I want to smile this xmas.

starting work on Monday. A part-time job for a marketing research company. Good thing is, its a 1 month only assignment (which means I have some allowance for now), and they allow me to take some time off work to go for my interviews. Nice.

off to orchard for xmas shopping~!

some pictures lovin' @ home.

this, is the last night I can sleep late. Till then, after 1 month, I can be back to my bed for as long as I want.

vexing.

chanced upon this photo of mum and dad. they looked so good don't they? at least I think mum is damn pretty and dad looks suave. no wonder their kids all inherited their genes. hee hee...

went frolick-ing~

ending this post with the uber cute baby~

its kinda getting vexing day by day. pls give me a miracle.