原來我什麼都不是...

have you ever feel proud of yourself when u managed to made someone smile, and felt that for once, you are actually special and capable of accomplishing things, making things right, and "useful" at last.


and then suddenly, u found out, that actually all these that u are doing, is already something, somebody else has done, and did even greater things that what you have done.


it feels like dropping into the bottomless hole, fear consuming all of me, with no tears...because the fear has overpowered everything else.