have I won or have I not?

This time im so determined, to pack my bags and go, I dun want to be hard on myself and stay to endure all these shit. not that Im a coward I just want to escape, but I see no point to stay anymore, when you are giving me this shitty treatment.

today, you finally admit u were wrong to treat me like that.I was so firm to not turn back this time, until you said that watever I dun like about you, you promise to change, you will be the old you.

because I mean that much to you...

I knew I have won this battle, clearly I know Im being loved more, and wanted more.

But why is it that I don't feel a tiny bit of happiness?isit because my heart really died this time?

how do we go from here?

tired frm all these.

孤獨
我哭紅了雙眼
心裏也流著淚
雨滴輕輕地拍打著我 好像在安慰我它會把我的淚水和傷心一起帶走流向大海

我站了好久好久雨停了，眼睛不紅了心裏卻多了一道很深的傷
這是我孤獨的心靈對我的抗議
我無能做什麽這是我心裏的淚

最近的夜晚跟往常一樣折磨我累得筋疲力盡卻無法入眠
心也涼了, 我早就不是活的了.
我是行屍走肉.
終于明白什麼是生不如死, 我已經快要受不了...

good by myself.

寻找 无人 的转角

我松开手 回忆却没放掉

未来不来了

我一个人 就好

为什么 越相信谁能依靠越换来 又一次灵魂寂寥

有没有永远 再不会让心绝望的解药?

从今以后 我一个人过 就很好

心只是寂寞

我眼角眼泪自己擦掉

我一个人很好

那从今以后 我一个人过 就很好...

the day I cried til there is no more left...the 1st time I cried so much for you. you agree with me when I said that if you love some1, you would not hurt him/her.but why did you hurt me?

how do you know its love?

Love is something that you grow into like a young child growing into teenager clothing. Love just don't happen overnight, in one day or in one week for that matter. I think what you feel for each other in the beginning is more attraction and curiosity and with time it can change into love, but in order for true love to happen there has to be trust, honesty, sincerity and compassion in the relationship.That is the only way you really get to know that person and to know if that person really loves you.

If the two of you do not make each other laugh then there is no reason to pursue a relationship. Afterall, if you can't laugh all you can do is cry.

unspoken words.

"Baby, I've been feeling shitty for the past 2 days.I missed my test, and the teacher still cant give me an answer if I can do a retest for it.If cant, I would most probably fail the module and have to retake, which means 6 months more.

I know I cant do anytink now, but Im feeling sucky, I wish you were here to make me feel better.I don't even dare to tell my mum..."

This was what I feel like telling you before you hang up.

Lately, I just duno how to talk to you, you don't have time for me anymore.

you seem so unfamiliar to me now.

loneliness.

like a big hole in my heart.

this emptiness is eating me up...

Hao ji mo... ( I feel lonely)

and all I could do, is type it out here.

I miss the old you, the old times...

Becoming like you.

Have you ever noticed that when you are in love you, become like the one you love?

Or have you experienced being a slave of your beloved?

There are two things love does to us. First we become like the one we love. Second we become the slaves of our beloved.Most of us adapt ourselves to our beloved. We somehow absorb qualities of our beloved into our own being.

The lover wants to please her beloved at all cost and in turn becomes the beloved’s slave. We can see all the crazy things humans do just to prove and win the affection of their beloved. Even if that means that the lover has to stoop down.

Now here is the problem. If we love something lower than us, like money, the flesh, fame and power, we become like them and are their slaves. If you love money, then the tendency is for you to be “like” money, You spend all your time thinking and obsessing about money and your time and energy pursuing it. And the only topic that comes out your mouth is money. It would be nice if actual money comes out of your mouth.

Now, is your beloved making you a better person? Or less?